You are very stressed and that’s why you are in knots. I never lost a job in my life but I’ve been desperate for finding a better paid job and it was an enormous stress and finding it was all I could think about. It consumed my life. I cannot even imagine stress of losing a job. My husband was laid off once many years ago it caused him such enormous depression that it led to other bad choices (losing his house due to plain inability to even seek a better solution). It was many years ago but he still terrified to even think about it. It’s awful.

And I’ve been divorced and ended near a decade (9 years) long cohabitation relationship. I was under so much stress both times that I had all kind of terrible awful symptoms. Being in knots is understatement

But it always ends and better days are ahead and sun comes out.

Going back to unhappy unsatisfying relationships or marriages simply because you (hypothetically) cannot handle current pain is not a solution. But sadly it’s not uncommon. We want to avoid pain. But then we usually create only more pain in a long run. Your marriage isn’t mysteriously turning into happy satisfying one. Not happening.

Anyone can buy tulips and give kisses. You can teach monkeys to do that. Anyone can say anything.

Now if you are going back because it’s now miraculously happy marriage, then it’s all good. But if it’s because he showered you with romantic gestures and you want to avoid pain, then it won’t work in a long run.

I’d avoid making any decisions while under stress. Give it some time and focus on job search. Things will work out one way or the other

And don’t worry about him finding another woman. He might find a date but not someone for a serious commitment. Not happening