That will be awesome if you and your 15-year old can take a trip somewhere this summer. We are similar in that even when we can't keep going, we do. That's a survivor and you are one. Always remember that. Have you considered going on antidepressants for the short term to get through this period of time? There are so many out there now that might help and it doesn't have to be forever. I hope you're feeling somewhat better today.