I'm on the waitlist for counselling I was going to go today but she cancelled because she was sick. So I will see her on the 1st of March. I really wanted to talk about my fears around my independence and why my family is so scared about me working. I have A.D.D so my attention span can keep me liable to mistakes. I'm now doing a cert 3 in health services assistance, which got me a very bad reaction from my sister her saying that it was a selfish course on my part because I could kill a patient and do I want to be a killer. It was an extreme reaction which my dad and her partner thought a bit extreme. My mother didn't think it was a good choice either because again attention span issues. So I really had to lie to my sister about doing the course and said Im doing community services. Then mum talked about my scrubs uniform at her house and I was like oh no now she's gonna know my secret my sister didn't say anything. I'm on centrelink and have been on it since 17 partly because of living in a low income house my mother had to take care of me because I was very depressed and would do stupid stuff. Then I got the diagnosis of BPD and A.DD which started my treatment on dexamphetamine, that medication didn't improve anything and it was only with help of a support worker at high school I was able to graduate.