A 50+ year marriage shows quite a commitment to each other. I'm sorry, though, that you feel that many things are missing in your relationship, and in your life. As for the lack of hugs, have you asked her for any these past 20 years? Do you even want any from her? You mention that you have an inherited depression, but I'd wonder if your wife is a bit depressed, too. Being alone, emotionally, sounds very sad and unfulfilling. I guess if you (both) don't feel unfulfilled, then you'd be on the same page. But by writing your post, I can't help but think you want more. Have you thought about couple's therapy? Do you think that despite your age you may enjoy finding a DIFFERENT companion? If the answer to the last question is yes, a change could be worth exploring. You're never too old to find fun and fulfilling companionship.

This May, my husband and I will celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary. I gotta say that I've wanted to be with him the whole entire time, despite little fights and some things that are less than ideal. And the latter do exist for most. I know we must weigh things out in relationships. To me, though, if there was no more than just being supported financially, or having someone to cook and clean, it would not be enough. I'd rather be poor"er" and happy than comfortable financially and not.