Almost exactly two years ago . . . you might need to go back and look at this to remind yourself that you've been here before:

I don't know what to do with my marriage

I hate to see you sucked back into the same old same old. I suspect it will just lead to a repeat of the last months. Do differently and things will turn out differently for you. Repeat the past, and you will end up right here in the same place again . . . again.