Few years ago I had fall out with my better half (midlife crisis, intimacy issues leading to my infidelity) and we are on verge of separation (my spouse wants it). We have been co-existing and co-parenting since. We are almost 2 decades into wedlock and recently became empty nesters. I have been sober for about 3 years straight and obvious no physical contact. However, I grew up in a touch deprived childhood and miss the physical affection (even a hug) constantly and it’s breaking me up daily. What do I do? I feel there is no solution in sight ? Divorce/separation is not an option for us due to finances and legal reasons.