If everything thing happens for a reason, and you believe God has given you more than you can bear, perhaps this is God's way of reminding you that he doesn't give more than you can bear. Perhaps God is giving you the chance to grow and change.

If you are addicted to love bombing, perhaps you should approach getting over the addiction with an addiction recovery path. Maybe let go and let God..

You've stated God is your higher power, so rely on that to see you through and comfort you. Your husband is not your higher power, he just has a lot of power over you.