QUOTE=RollercoasterLover;7307296]If everything thing happens for a reason, and you believe God has given you more than you can bear, perhaps this is God's way of reminding you that he doesn't give more than you can bear. Perhaps God is giving you the chance to grow and change.

If you are addicted to love bombing, perhaps you should approach getting over the addiction with an addiction recovery path. Maybe let go and let God..

You've stated God is your higher power, so rely on that to see you through and comfort you. Your husband is not your higher power, he just has a lot of power over you.[/QUOTE]

Your husband is not your higher power, he just has a lot of power over you.
^I love this!

Have Hope- If this is at all helpful… The back and forth relationship has to do with attachment issues, and it is call the approach avoidant repetition compulsion. It is what holds a trauma bonded relationship. All I have learned from experts is that the relationship must end to stop the abusive relationship.

It doesn’t matter if you did things others judge you for. You are only human. Extreme stress brings out the worst in everyone. I always think of the Tina Turner song, “I don’t care who’s wrong or right, I don’t really want to fight no more.”

What I like about CoDA is that it has you turn control over to your Higher Power as part of the 12 step program just like AA.