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Originally Posted by ArtleyWilkins
Maybe. My faith tells me that good and evil exist along with free will. I don’t believe the bad in the world is God’s cosmic plan. I do believe my faith gives me strength and discernment to make wise choices. But they ARE choices, and I can just as easily make poor decisions if I use God as my rationale for my bad choices. I am a person of strong faith, but with that faith comes responsibility.
I am hearing you slide into rationalizing your poor decision to go back to a man you have been describing as narcissistic, abusive, unfaithful, etc. You’re scared. I get that. I may get that more than most. But I don’t have a husband to help me. My husband died. I MUST figure life out on my own. What that has taught me is that I am stronger than I ever realized. I have gotten through the worst life could throw at me and found my own path.
You can choose to repeat your abusive and dysfunctional relationship with your husband to “solve” your temporary situation, OR, you can choose to find your own path and find solutions that will be your own. I believe you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
It’s time to give yourself some credit.
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Thank you! Although I didn't say I was going back to him. I am only saying I am leaning on him right now for support. That doesn't mean I am going to return to him as husband and wife.
You were forced to find your own path after your husband died. That's different.
As mentioned, it's a perfect storm I am in right now that is leading to me lean on my husband more than I have been.
My friends all live out of state. I cannot just call a girlfriend to go hang out at any time. I talk to my girlfriends on the phone, but at the end of the day, I sit here in my apartment, all alone every day, with no one around me and only my cat to give me some amount of comfort.
I am terrified about my career right now - absolutely terrified. I got fired. I am scared, I am alone, I have no one to hang out with & here he is, offering me love, and support.
Still, it does not mean I am going to rekindle the relationship in full. I am wary of that.....
You call it a poor choice. I call it desperation for support.