Truth is no one feels the pain I have inside of me, all I try to do is hide it, I just wish I could hide it from myself, I am tried of crying, it isn't enough, I guess I just need to live with how I am and who I am- I will always be this way, I see no relief, I can not even think about the future, I think of things in present( what is happening at this moment) I just wish someone out there IRL would understand how I feel inside, I am so sad and I have no one to cry to. I am just rambling do not feel like you have respond, after all who am I, not sure anymore.