Paul,
I'm a recent new member and this place is great for getting questions answered and finding support. These people on here are incredible. That being said, the more specific you can be with a question the better the answers will be. Bipolar disorder can manifest such a broad range of symptoms it's hard to say whether or not you may be bipolar just from your question, but if you suspect you might be suffering, see you doctor. It's not worth it to suffer without treatment because treatment is available and can make you better. The suffering is awful which make it so important to get help. Good luck!!!!
Take care,
Suz