@AliceKate, how am I using God's will to justify my choices? I don't understand your post. Can you please articulate that further?

I wrote above that I don't believe God's will is for me to stay with an abusive husband. But my husband is claiming he is changing all for the better, that he "gets it" now, and that he wants to do right by me. Is my husband truly able to change? And is THAT God's will? That my husband has stuck with me through thick and thin, and is willing and capable of changing? Am I supposed to believe him, or walk away.... ? WHY is God creating life circumstances for me that are making it SO difficult for me to walk away fully?

When I was with my husband, I used to pray all the time for God to eliminate ALL abusive behaviors in my husband. I prayed every day for this. So, is God answering this prayer of mine? And is God creating the same circumstances, pointing me back to my husband again, to give him another chance?

I do not know the answers -- no one can know.

Bottom line is: I can choose, and I have to make the best choice I can for myself right now. I'm definitely confused & conflicted for certain, but in my gut, I don't think I will ultimately get back together with my husband.