I hate that I have to wait a few weeks to tell you how much you hurt me in the session. It feels like the emotions are so intense I might burst. I want so badly to email you to see if you can see me sooner but I can’t go through that again. I can’t cope to email you and feel like I’m being so annoying to you and hang on for days on end for you to reply, only to be met with the probable rejection that you don’t have any free time or not answer any of my questions. For you to leave me here in the dark. It really sucks this thing with you sometimes. I love you but sometimes it feels like I hate you.