So rasperadone makes me feel sick but I'm only on it for a week hopefully. I'm still not feeling real and hollow. My dog refuses to leave my side even though I'm not leaving the bed. But I haven't cried today. I want to sh but I know I can't. I have a PCP appointment Tuesday and I'm worried I won't make a good impression. Definitely won't if I have fresh wounds so really trying not to. Then I have 3-hr dentist appointment Wednesday. I don't think I can handle that. I have to cancel it but h will want to go to his appointment. So I don't know. I also pick out new glasses Tuesday. I have to double my rasperadone to 4 mg tonight. I'm scared.