Thread: I let him back in and now I am kicking myself #2
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Old Feb 20, 2023, 02:24 PM
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True enough!!!

AND, being with him again made me feel like I'm 90 years old!!!!! His many physical ailments are a HUGE issue for me!

I am far too young, healthy, and full of life to be held back in life... I want to be more active again - I want to kayak, roller blade, swim, sail, hike, ski and camp -- NONE of which my husband can do!!!!

I held myself back from doing ANY of these things that I absolutely love doing!!!!

He made me feel that I needed to be with him 24/7 because he needed me... and being again with him, with his severe back problems, was a great reminder of all of this, in addition to everything else that is problematic for me.

Being with him is like sitting on the bench or watching life go by me... I can't do that to myself..... not again and not ever again!
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