I've been getting on the treadmill a lot, doing yoga regularly, etc, it's helping my mental health a lot. Today I did 30 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes of stress relief yoga.

My anxiety has been pretty bad lately, so I'm doing everything I can to manage that. I started practicing ukulele again. My focus has been better the past 2 days. So I've been able to read quite a bit of a book series I started. For awhile I was struggling so hard to focus, I couldn't even watch a 20 minute show I enjoy without pausing it 8 times to stop and do something else or take a break because I just couldn't focus for that long. I wasn't getting any reading done. I was starting and stopping books, starting and stopping, reading too many at once, getting overwhelmed then just giving up on reading for awhile.

My mood has been mostly good. A little up and down some, and paranoid sometimes though but that is just what it is, a part of me, that's there frequently, I just try my best to challenge the thoughts and let it go, try to not let it affect me. Been isolated too much the past few days and sometimes it gets to me. There's no events going on in the building today because it's a holiday and obviously saturday and sunday nothing was going on because it was the weekend.

I'll be honest, I wasn't doing great on Saturday, I was walking home from the store and a large group of teenagers started laughing at me and making fun of me loudly. Which really hurt my feelings and self esteem. I was just walking home. I just tried my best to ignore them and walked home but when I got back inside my apartment I cried for awhile. It just made me feel like a freak or something and that I'm an outcast or something. I' m 28, I feel like it shouldn't have bothered me as much as it did but it really hurt my feelings and made me concerned about walking places again. I live in bad neighborhood, shootings, drug deals, etc. Making fun of me is on thing but one started to cross the street to approach me for some reason and i got a little concerned about my safety for a second, another of the teens told her to just leave me alone, so she walked back to the group and they left while I was walking home