AND, I just told him on the phone that I cannot be with him in a relationship again. It happened spontaneously because he was asking about seeing music together next weekend, so I was forced to bring it up and confront it. He cried and begged again for an hour or so, but I stood my ground. It truly sucks, but I know it's the right thing and I am proud of myself.

And right now, I don't feel apologetic or bad about it. I told him too much damage was done. I said that emotionally, I cannot bring myself to have faith in him again, or to place my trust in him again, or give him my heart again. I said it's the end, for me. He tried to argue against my stance, and I told him he has to respect my feelings.

He was pushing things with me, all over again. Clueless. As though he thought he could just slide right back into boyfriend status with me... without rebuilding the trust, and without giving me space to think and process. He didn't want to give me any space. Once again, it was ALL about HIM and what HE wants, and not about ME or anything that I want or need.

All I've heard over the last few days are about fixing my car, or perhaps getting a new place together, once his mother's insurance money comes through, or about things we can do together again. He made himself my boyfriend again super fast! What he should have been doing is sitting back & simply being my friend.

And, I am reminded of how he truly is... throughout the relationship, I went unacknowledged, my interests fell by the wayside, along with who I truly am. He neglected me since it was always about HIM. Everything revolves around him and how he feels.

Forget it. I am DONE.