So, yesterday night mum was watching a show about IVF and it started to make me anxious because of my age I know that fertility drops dramatically, once your 30 and I really wish I had the money to freeze my eggs. It's a hard feeling being anxious to the point you can't sleep and crying, I just didn't feel like I was wife material for a man to want to do all that with me, so I felt like I needed assistance like IVF or something for me to be a parent. It was only after my mum gave me a Xanax that I was finally able to sleep.