You just came from getting an infusion, which was emotionally trying, plus you must have been getting physically depleted. We dont just bounce right back up.

Msybe im not hard enough on myself now, but i spent most of my life stressed out to the max about meeting deadlines and expectations. Not goals - everything i did was for someone else, not for me. This is a new paradigm. I HAVE started walking around the house saying, "i cant take this anymore."

I dont understand why you wont give yourself some grace. I hate seeing it! Then if you dont like it, you can go back to being a b to yourself, if you must! But its just an additional burden weighing you down, imo.