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I'm sorry you feel like you can't call T when you need to

Let's see if we can help.

My T is not accessible when he is on vacation, so some things I have done are:
1. journalling. sometimes just getting it all OUT - all the fears, etc - instead of just letting them bounce around in my head - gives me a little relief.
2. imagining what T would tell me if he were here. It's so hard to access that when I'm in a really bad spot - but sometimes, if I can get quiet for a moment, I can imagine what T might say if he were available to help me.
3. Talking to a friend. I'm lucky that I have a friend IRL who can be really supportive in these situations. Do you have someone you can call? PC helps too - a lot. Sometimes it just helps to be heard.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( fluff )))))))))))))))))))))))))) What a tough spot to be in. It's such a bad feeling to not know whether or not it's okay to call T. What is the worst thing that would happen if you called him?