I found some Depakote in my medicine drawyer. It was 3 years old and leftover from when I went inpatient after my boyfriend died. They discharged me with a pile of drugs that filled up a wicker basket. None of the stuff helped back then. I must have thrown away most of them. So I started taking the Depakote to see if it would calm down my anxiety.

It seems to help me sleep. The pills are 250 mg.

I'm back in a dark tunnel. I tell myself this can't last for ever. No appetite. Yesterday all I ate was Cup of Noodles and glass of milk. Day before, I ate almost nothing. Usually I have no trouble eating.