I went to an Al Anon meeting this eve. I used to go to those meetings years ago when my boyfriend was drinking heavily. I learned a lot back then. There always seemed to be good people there with words of wisdom to share. Where I went tonight was a nice environment. I shared a little about how I've been very upset over receiving drunken phone calls and feel I need more wisdom about handling those kind of calls. I think I'll go back next week.

Going some place where I don't know anyone was hard for me to do. But staying at home was getting to be harder, so off I went.

I still feel awful pessimistic.