he messaged me two different days out of the blue, wishing me well, then hoping i was having a good day. then said he might be getting job back here and he'd be on a plane with a bag.

its so him.

i can hardly comprehend what he was saying to me. he just presented it like he might have job opportunity that he would love to take if its offered. just how it would be a dream for him to be in that particular job environment again. that'd he'd leave behind where he is now for it. immediately. show up empty handed for it.

perplexing.

the perpetual hype of what's good, where he's wanted and needed, the romance, passion, and excitement. his big blind spots.
he's an opportunist.

maybe he has learned he can live apart from us, and thinks he is capable of doing it closer now.

i get sad thinking of him being close. so many difficult times with him. i cant imagine he is better. those months thinking he might behave decent but experiencing his meanness time and time again.

kids wouldn't want to see him. how will he handle that?

likely the job would fall through? but nonetheless its a loud siren that he is willing, wanting to come back here. now i think its just a matter of time.