You even try to think for her. Instead of reliving the past and anticipating all the reactions she’ll have in the future, start living in the present for yourself. I’ve said before I don’t think your therapist is helping you progress out of this relationship. Your goal here should be detachment and ultimately indifference. You seem to be living her life in your mind.

It also seems like the more you concentrate on what she’s doing, feeling, drinking, the less energy you have to work on what you can control-yourself and your own future. Work on becoming a healthy person for your own sake.