Dear T,

I wonder if I am at the right stage in my life to be doing this work? Life is busy right now, and if I can ignore what happened and the effect that that is still having on me, I think it can be good again. I feel like I'm just too busy with everything right now to be travelling this path. It is just so much effort to feel the way I have been feeling recently and it is negatively affecting my life in lots of different ways. I'm not sure I can deal with it. But then, if not now, when? Never? After it's too late to tell the one person who is left that I really would, kind of, maybe, possibly like to know? The thing that keeps me going with this work is that I feel like I've come to far not to try to get over these last few hurdles, but I am seriously scared they are going to break me, and I can't let that happen again.

What do I do, T? What is best? (I know that only I can answer that, but I'm feeling lost)