Also, I noticed something this morning. I feel calm. Calmer than I have felt in a long while. Something has changed.

I had lunch with my sister yesterday. I told her that selfishly speaking, seeing my ex again a couple weeks ago in fact actually helped me to get past him more. I feel more at peace over this ending.... far more than I have felt all this time. I think I found my closure? I am no longer enraged with him, and I don't hold anger inside of me. I think I've let it go? I think seeing him also was a way of saying goodbye, without all the anger that I've more recently carried towards him.

This may be a part of why I now feel so peaceful, even amidst all the stress of unemployment. I am also kinda enjoying my time off, ironically. I am glad to be gone from my last job. I wasn't happy there, and I never truly felt a part of the company. I was on the sidelines socially, and it was awkward for me there.

I will embrace today this newfound feeling. It feels good... amazing, really.