Dear T
Why can't I make a decision?

Do I, don't I.... I have 2 sessions left in this batch of 6. I need to decide whether or not to take a break from therapy, or continue on just feeling progressively worse each week. To the point where I don't even want to talk to you. When you are the one person I should be talking to about it.

Why do I find leaving or taking a break so hard? Is it because I think I probably won't return, and may subsequently end up in a worse state...? I'd hate to undo all the work we've done over this past year. I'm so tired of it all, but there is still such a lot of stuff we need to cover. I'm just not sure I can face it.


Maybe that is what is really behind this ambivalence, and maybe it's exactly that I should be talking to you about.