Thanks everyone for your thoughtful replies. I am still very hurt about this response. Even though I know that she loves and cares about me. Which is what made it hard for me to leave her for so long when I probably needed to. When I read it, I can't help but to say ouch to some of it. I hope to process it some in therapy tomorrow with my new therapist. It feels like a mind **** and I need to know that I am not losing my mind, that there is someone, therapeutic or not that will love me as much as she claims she did. And if she had doubts about her ability to help me, as it sounds like from the beginning of her text, it would have been nice if she would have brought them up to me as well. I love her and I probably always will but I feel like there was a complete mind **** going on and I just cannot deal with that. I need someone to help me sort it out. Hopefully my new T can. I am not saying that I didn't have problems--duh, I'm in therapy. And obviously I took care of her too much. I'm trying not to read it too much now, but I am hoping to read it to new T tomorrow so I can get her take on it and more importantly, how to move forward. HUGS all, Kit