Sending you lots and lots of overdue hugs, and wishes for quick healing. Once I identified and acknowledged the harms done to me by several narcissists in my life, I felt a lot lighter, and far more free.

Your healing has already begun, it appears, and I have every confidence you will do well.

I still have lightbulb moments, where things occur to me that I had buried, or which trauma had disguised; as they come back to you, you'll process them and carry on. Trauma, though very difficult to endure, can make you a lot smarter and stronger. Just give it time.

I feel sorry your family can't be a support for you at this time. Families can be such a mixed bag. You're smart to remain selectively quiet about it all, and carefully choose you confidences. You will be very glad you chose that path.

I have found a lot of help with several online (free, youtube) counsellors. They acknowledged, and validated, an awful lot that was still troubling me. That was a pretty big deal for me.

I'll be thinking of you, and wishing you well!

Many huggggsss....