Thanks *Beth*

New T said that it sounded like ex-T was trying to process the ending of our relationship while she wrote the text to me which is why it was so up and down. She said some of it was unprofessional and perhaps inappropriate. She said she could understand why I said ouch when I did. And I gave her a little more context about my caretaking of my therapist, like when she cancelled my session and then sent me a text of her drinking in a bar in Vegas, or when she sent me a text and she was all beat up looking, like it look like someone beat the crap out of her, but she said that she fell. It's hard to not caretake to someone like that. And I said that when I first started seeing her it was after IOP and to have that care and love and to be held after losing like 5 session a week was really helpful but the longer things went on the more bizarre they became and I could no longer make heads or tails of it. New T said that it was good that I realized that although she might have been a good T for me at one time, she was no longer a good T for me now. We weren't working on anything. We weren't making progress. I didn't feel understood. What the hell was I paying her for? It wasn't like I had an AHA moment after talking to new T about it. But I don't feel crazy. I feel like maybe any normalish person might have had some ouch moments in reading that text. Not that I felt like ouch for the whole thing but just parts of it. And I was glad that new T didn't bash old T because I do love old T. She is just not good for me right now in my journey.

HUGS Kit