Bad day today. Not feeling strong right now.

My oldest sat with me a few nights ago and said, "We need leadership Dad. You have to lead, and you have to be positive so that we can move ahead and be ok."

He is such a good young man.

It's hard to move forward with love, if that makes any sense. I don't want to hate her. I don't want to tear her down. I feel a tremendous amount of guilt, like that I turned her into what she is now. Because of that I feel like I owe her. But for me and kids to have a future someone has to come out further ahead in all this and it has to be us.

RDM