In the several months I've been depressed I've been too flat emotionally to cry. Nthing has made me cry, including my cousin's death.



I just woke up from a dream where my beloved and long-gone grandmother was preparing to take one of her great-grandchildren to "West Paris". I don't know why "west" was important.

I didn't continue to cry after I woke up and I really didn't cry much but so strange that all these months and the thing that makes me cry is a perfectly normal dream.

A good cry would feel good. Maybe someday. I think I'm not crying in therapy becausei it's online as I can't drive with the sedation.


And now I need more of that sedation because I am wide awake wake too early (2:45 AM)