Willowtigger, please try to reframe. You did the best you could for your little girl. There was nothing else that could be done. All pet owners at one time or another have had to face that decision. It isn't easy. But we don't want our babies living in pain. I let my poor Esther go after a 2.5 year battle with diabetes that ravaged her organs. Does that make me a murderer? No. It makes me compassionate. Please try to see yourself in a different light. I know this is a hard day for you and we are here for you. But hun, you have to stop beating yourself up. She knows you love her. I believe you will see her again one day. HUGS Kit