I had a lot of therapy when it came to understanding the gravity of what I had been dealing with when it came to my older sister. More than one therapist felt I was dealing with a narcissist. It was explained to me that I was emotionally manipulated and that I had to understand that my sister did not think and feel like me. It was hard for me to see the reality of her and that she is not caring like me. That’s part of the craziness that one experiences when letting go of how you see another person instead of seeing who they really are.

I loved someone who did not exist. That was hard to wrap my head around.