I told my mother and she was more supportive than I expected. I felt like I needed to post this in her defense. She’s always been hit or miss in her attitude depending on her mood. I now understand the whole intermittent reinforcement thing. I’ve come to the conclusion that we’re just highly neurotic, anxious and it is not bad intent, rather it is anxiety behind all the dysfunction all around. Still, I am not going to let myself get pulled back into the back/forth with him anymore. It is alright if I am just not a person who should be in an intimate relationship.