I've posted a lot before.

The woman I'm with now is not who she was when we married, or even who she was a few years ago.

I've torn myself apart, especially in the last 5 years, trying to get things right

I have revisited and revisited stuff on here and in counselling for years, and I wouldn't change much of what I've done.

I'm mourning 20+ years of connection.

This really sucks

RDM