if you read the post... perhaps.. you can answer.. the most important question.. I have.... I just do not understand... WHY????

am tired... and very scared...sometimes life seems so overwhelming....my alters make decisions... and I live with them...it is just such an active "world" I live in...really with my alters... doing a little bit of everything... money spent... things done...

I feel... mis-understood... by the outside world... by something I cannot help... my DID...

yet trading my DID... I wouldn't... I realized that... this past week....

yet with that comes... things... that happen.... that I didn't do.. that I have to deal with...

I was in grocery store today... and said "yesterday XYZ" happened..."... and... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... after I got home.. I realized it could not have been yesterday... it was Monday... yet.. Monday.. was my yesterday...

so am I a LIAR??????

Everyone... that heard me.. would think "what a LIAR"... because I was not in the store yesterday...
yet I didn't mis-speak... you know...it was "yesterday"... "my Yesterday"

I just lost Tues... Wed... and Thurs.......

gezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... don't know whether to hate myself.. or.. just understand myself.. when others don't...

HELP>>>>>