Thank you for that. It feels like I’m just going through the motions. Trying everyday to find an excuse to see another. Why do I still miss a woman who does not care about me at all? My head knows I need to move on but I have never felt pain and loss like this. Cancer was/is the least of my worries. I went for my annual PET scan and I did not even care about what the results were. Perhaps there is something wrong with me. I am seeing a therapist every week and have been for over a year. The grief of my Mom and my previous wife and my previous life is just paralyzing.