This was a while ago but in November 2001, i lost my mom, not my biological mother but she raised me from when i was a baby. She past away from AML leukimia. Ever since her death i have never been the same. Even after all this time i have still not really gotten over it. I barely cried, and that bothered me. Even till now i have a hard time crying. Sometimes when i am alone i think i hear her laugh or when i laugh we laugh the same. I have tried to talk to my girlfriend about everything but every time i start to tear i just stop saying any thing. So much runs thru my mind about that day, i cant stop thinking about it. I can still see her on that hospitol bed in a coma. I cant get it out of my mind and i want to. I do not know the point of this post. Just neeeded to vent a little i think. Thanks for listening.