First of all welcome to the forum. You fit in here just as you are. You don't have to "do" anything but be yourself. I hope you will find everyone supportive for you.
I can imagine it is hard when someone doesn't support what you want to study. Could it be that they are looking at it from a different perspective?
Sometimes it is a good idea to use self care when trying to help others. It can be overwhelming when you are struggling so much yourself.
Know that I am out here and that I understand how you are feeling.
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