I don’t know why I’m still so depressed. I really wish the ECT was giving some inkling of working. I really want to go back to work. If I lose this job that’s it. I’ll be applying for disability.

I lost my ID too. It’s not in my purse. I must have been so upset I threw it somewhere. That’s awesome. Maybe it’s in my car. I mean it’s somewhere it’s just no telling where it is.

I barely slept last night. Like maybe three hours max, even with taking seroquel.

I feel like my time IP was a complete waste, all it accomplished was to get me started with ECT which I could have done at home.

I am excited though because in two weeks (March 21st) I will be one year self harm free. So at least I’ve done something useful.

Edit: I found my ID, it was in my purse just not the pocket I usually put it in. I also talked to my boss and he’s pretty sure I can go back on the days in between treatment. So I should be back Monday or Tuesday as long as HR agrees. Now if I could just remember the time I’m supposed to start. :-/