Hey, I'm sorry that happened to you.

Not to blow off your concerns, but have you tried DBT (I know, it sounds like I'm just telling you to try a new therapy that is newfangled and whatever, and that is what it does sound like, but it has really helped me to look into it).

There are things called Distress Tolerance skills that I use a lot (it's part of DBT). The motto with those skills is that it's not about making things better; it's just about not making things worse.

Anyway, it sounds like you didn't make things any worse.

Which is pretty admirable in that situation of high stress.

Seriously, it sounds stupid but I want to give you kudos for that.