Hi MuddyBoots,

I have been through an eating disorder and came out on the other side .
So I am here to tell you, it is entirely possible and that life without an eating disorder is SO much better than life with an eating disorder. I still suffer from anxiety and OCD, but to be honest, I would still choose that over an eating disorder any day. So keep fighting!
It seems like you're not in therapy, this is the first thing I would recommend.
Your eating problems are just symptoms of underlying issues and anxiety and you will need help from outside to deal with these problems.
So try to remember that your problems are really not about your body or food. Maybe that helps.
If you can, consider telling your mom about your problems and getting help from a therapist.