Thank you for today T, thank you for repairing things with me, for acknowledging my pain and for saying you were sorry and helping me work through the hard stuff. I think you meant it when you said you were sorry. I’m low key pissed off at your supervisor for suggesting you take that different approach that made me feel awful, but I also recognise the important information that surfaced out of it. And i think I believe you when you say you didn’t intend to hurt me. I’m glad I got to express to you how much it hurt. I’m glad you gave me time to express that, the sad part felt heard and listened to even when I didn’t say anything for a few minutes. The way you sat with me in it patiently meant a lot. And I’m glad you held me with that and didn’t try to deny any of it. I was so worried you were gonna do that because that would have made me feel so invalidated, I think it’s because that’s been my experience with my parents. I think today was the first time for as long as I can remember that I actually said the words ‘I’m angry’. Wow. What a revelation that I was never allowed to express that as a child because it was never safe, and how that affects me now. That along with the fact my parents never apologised to me. Thanks for being able to cope with my intense feelings, and making it feel safe to feel them, even the anger, and for confirming that I’m not too much for you. I am grateful for you. And I’m a little scared to say this now, partially because I think you think that when I say this it’s not actually about you, but it feels true for me…I love you