I have been involved with someone who was going through a divorce and has now been officially divorced for about 4 months. His wife filed about a year ago & officially signed papers 4 months ago. Long story short, he says we’re “just friends” but has discussed marrying me, meeting his family, moving in, told me I was his child’s “new mommy” (I know…I know) and even told me that “being in love” with me scares him. All the while saying I’m just a close friend he feels nothing for. He told me he loved me & then the next day swore up & down that he never said it. If I explain that he makes me feel like a convenience at times if a new girl comes along he tells me what I’m feeling “isn’t real” He also started AA two months ago. There’s been so many inconsistencies within this situation with words matching actions & I have become so frustrated that I’ve begun to have explosive reactions & then immediately regret them afterwards. Recently he told me I have been “so emotionally unstable” & that it’s extremely “selfish” of me being emotionally unstable because he’s been “transparent” the entire time we’ve been involved…we’ve been in a few arguments

recently & he blocked me to which I got a texting app to text him on & he would have conversations with me on them. last night he was wanting me to drop a gift off at his house & he misunderstood my text & immediately got pissed that I hadn’t dropped it & threatened a restraining order against me telling me I was “insane” & that he has no idea what I’m capable of (I have never threatened him ever) BUT then still wanted me to drop off the gift “peacefully & go our separate ways” feel like I’m going crazy & am questioning am I actually emotionally unstable & I’m begin to feel guilt now. I have begun no contact but I am feeling extremely defeated & genuinely crazy. am I reacting to all the emotional inconsistencies have I been driven to madness? any advice is great