I have PMDD too now. It is unbearable to live with all of my issues.

What don’t I have????

I know my entire family secretly hates me and pretends with me now. I never want to interact with them anymore but I am forced to because of my kids. I cannot tell if I am paranoid or it is real. It is beyond hurtful.

Everyone hates me. I have no friends at almost 50 years old.

I failed at motherhood and that shame and guilt haunt me and are overwhelmingly unbearable.

I want to just disappear and move somewhere all alone and never speak to anyone from my past like my family and even my kids.