Felt enormously tired when I woke up. Some mugs of coffee helped and I saw parts of a Bipolar program where some of the focus were one how different we are.

I think it is important to remember THAT and that nobody fits into one sack. For me with my Bipolar NOS it is extremely important to know.

Sometimes I feel like I don't fit in. As a senior I feel that I don't fit in with my younger colleagues. As a family member I feel like they relate to somebody they think is me, not to the real me (who do suffer a great deal). I cannot call one of them saying: "I felt so relaxed when I saw a program about Bipolar Disorder". Any disorder that is not physical is not allowed in my family. When it comes to my Bipolar NOS, I feel that I don't qualify as a real Bipolar! But still I am suffering in my way and that is what this is all about, trying to cope as best one can with ones own sufferings and trying to make the best out of the life one has.

I want to thank you all for being so kind to me here!

For now I am going to dress and go for a walk (after I have "planted" my dinner menu for today into my head. Need to be more clever to make proper meals made at home and not pre-made from the store).