Hi coconut64, nice to have you here.

I definitely looked for a female T. I called a psychoanalytic institute and asked if they had a female T in my area who is also a candidate at the institute. They only had one and I was so lucky it's such a good fit.

It was quite simple, why I wanted a female T. I wanted a female T to feel close to. I never felt close to my mother and I wanted a female T to kind of fill that role.

I've also had many bad experiences with men and they can be frighteningly intimidating. I have had male T's in the past. One was an REBT therapist and he was good but I didn't care for the REBT; one was great to talk to but not too deep and he disappeared when he was arrested and had his license revoked for having a relationship with his client. As T's they were okay... but they were .. men! lol I know they are professionals but they are still... men! It's definitely a prejudice on my part. I think that men are severely sex-focused and / or behavior-focused and lack emotional awareness and the value of emotional awareness. I know this is my prejudice, but that's the me I have to work with at the moment.