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Originally Posted by Rosi700
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I have quoted myself because this is very important to me. I have thought a lot since my last input. All of us need a flock (a herd) to belong to. In reality we belong to different flocks to some degree (family, work, hobbies and so on). I have come to the conclusion that I do belong to the bipolar flock as well. I mean I am good enough for you. I do not fulfill the four day criteria for hypomania (that is about the NOS), but my "highs" are there. I cannot run away from them. I have to plan my life in accordance with what to expect and learn how to use the best psychological tools I know about just like others who have this disorder or a some sort of a similar one. We all know ourselves best. We are all unique and nobody is a copy of another.
May be I have the tendencies to feel not good enough, because I felt that I was never seen (the real me) by my mother.
I will work on not devaluing myself compared to others. I mean it and I have done a lot of the work already over years.  |
So one more "self-quote": I think that sometimes my seriousness is playing with me.
When I do something, I do it properly. I try to be kind, never cheat and try to keep what I have promised.
For the time being it seems like I am struggling with if it is OK for my conscience to be in this group with a not "perfect" diagnose. (
I am trying to look at it from an outsiders perspective now).
Of course it is! (
Sounds better). I have never been a perfectionist, so this is not me. We have had two years with Covid and then I have had one year with too low iron in my blood stream. A lot of "old problems" have suddenly jumped up from nowhere. Problems I thought I had overcome.
I think that it should be expectable that some old problems come up as new again in this situation. I have conquered them before, so I can do it again.
I need to put my expectancy at a level that is right according to what I have been through. Only a step at the time ...
(Think my self-quoting is done now).
