((((((((((((((((((((twinmommy)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Life can just get so overwhelming. Living with two small children and then having to deal with children the rest of the day may make it seem that your life revolves around those that you always have to support and that leaves you with none. Just a thought.

Is there some interest you may have that you can meet people your age with like interests to also interact with? You also need some time for you in some type of way. I know how hard this can be to juggle. But it is important that you too feel understood and heard. Sometimes seeing someone that does hear and understand you helps too.

I hope that the shame on me can be redirected into all the positive things you do for others. I know it is hard when you are feeling so depressed but there really is good things in life. Sometimes it just doesn't seem so.

Know I am here and I have had some similar thoughts and feelings. PM me anytime. There is more out there.

BB